Tomorrow is the anniversary of my dad’s death. I find myself more sad now....the depression is creeping in. I have been in a funk since coming back from Guate and the annual realization of my father’s passing has added to my funk. My sister called me yesterday and told me she was having a difficult time too. Honestly, I want to forget about it all....forget about the pain, the grief, the loss....but I have learned to forget (or pretend to forget) is not the life I want to live. I want to embrace the loss, but I feel like I don’t have the strength. I can certainly understand it, bad news always travels faster to my head. But my heart doesn’t want to hear or embrace any of it. I want to keep it all rationalized away in my head. It’s less painful that way. So, please somebody tell my heart.......
-d-
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