Friday, April 4, 2008

Please, somebody tell my heart...


Tomorrow is the anniversary of my dad’s death.  I find myself more sad now....the depression is creeping in.  I have been in a funk since coming back from Guate and the annual realization of my father’s passing has added to my funk.  My sister called me yesterday and told me she was having a difficult time too.  Honestly, I want to forget about it all....forget about the pain, the grief, the loss....but I have learned to forget (or pretend to forget) is not the life I want to live.  I want to embrace the loss, but I feel like I don’t have the strength.  I can certainly understand it, bad news always travels faster to my head.  But my heart doesn’t want to hear  or embrace any of it.   I want to keep it all rationalized away in my head.  It’s less painful that way.  So, please somebody tell my heart.......


-d-

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